Still, but not Stagnant

It was an early summer's day and I just said goodbye to my two best friends at the airport. As I watched them walk away my heart sank with uncertainty with what I would do in this new place that didn't have a mall, had a cow pasture next to the high school and didn't have my two best friends within a five minute driving distance. You could say my small teenage world crumbled, but that would be melodramatic and a horribly negative end to the story.

When you are an active person who hates being bored, you will find something to do. And I did. I explored! I ate at country grocery stores, listened to Indie music and met creative, country and earth changing people who were very different than me. And surprisingly, I loved it! The thrill of finding a new coffee shop down the road with the best chai tea latte you've ever had or meeting a person who will sit and have deep meaningful life chats fueled my past seven years of movement and growth.

But today looks different. I entered a season of change but I didn't move. My town, home, church and school stayed the same, but everything feels different. The challenge is I can't recognize the change as easily as when I move to a new apartment or have to learn new roads or have to find new ways to make friends. It's requiring going deeper to see the change beyond the discovery of a new hang spot or finding 'your people'. 

I am learning change is less about moving around and more about moving down. Down into the depths of who I am, what my community means, who is around me and how I am impacting those around me. It's a change of perspective rather than a change of scenary. Still moving and changing during this season, just in a new way. 

So once again, I am back in that place like I was nearly 7 years ago when I waved goodbye to my two best friends. And I am starting to get that feeling again. Not uncertainty.